Philippians 3:8 Broken Pt 2

And so, as I started to rise from the brokenness, I looked down and saw things that I was carrying that could only have been revealed to me through breaking.

I was grieved cos I saw old wounds that had become cancerous and were manifesting in behaviours that created a continuous distance from my Creator. I had spent my life feeding my soul with rubbish.

My mind was messed up, my heart was in darkness and I was existing but not living. God can’t pour into a place that’s already full. The breaking was Him emptying His vessel.

Oh praise God!! Jesus. Jesus. Jesus ❤❤

I now count all those things I believed to be important as dung like Paul said so I could gain Christ. God has started to remodel me into what He had in mind when He formed me in my mother’s womb. All old things have truly passed away and now He is doing a new thing.

A God who pursued me to the pits of hell and back, who loved me even after I had played the harlot with my soul. This kind of love will never make sense to me – EVER! But now instead of questioning it, I’m opening myself up to receiving it. Satan will keep you from receiving God’s love by condemning you and making you feel unworthy of His love. There is no condemnation in Christ – NONE.

As a child runs to their parent after a messy number 2, run to Him with all your number 2s! Nothing is too messy, stinky or disgusting for Him. He is your Father, our Father who art in Heaven ❤

Your issues are safe with Him. He is the ONLY confidant I know who has never been shocked or confused by my behavior. He allowed the brokenness so I could move closer to Him. It was through the breaking that my breakthrough came❤

It’s a journey. It’s a relationship. It’s a process. Open your heart and invite Jesus in. Its the best invitation you will ever make in your life.

Be and stay blessed always 🌸

2 Cor 4:18 Broken Pt 1

This post is for anyone going through brokenness. The kind of brokenness that makes you choke in tears each time you think about it.

In 2020 you kept the faith and believed that, come 2021, you are done with pain! Until something happened in 2021 that dragged you into the pit of pain like never before!!

You hit the floor hard, ALL of you shattered and you are sobbing like Naomi and ready to change your name to Mara. Ready to lose hope like Ezekiel.

And then after all of that; a warmth starts developing within.. Not because the situation has changed, but YOU did! Deep down you know God hasn’t moved from the throne, His Love still remains and that your brokenness was not in vain.

All those tears, the breaking, the pain, the anxiety and perceived neglect was not in vain. You know what? Either way, LIFE – WILL – BREAK – YOU!! The comfort is when you break in HIS presence.

I sometimes project my pain to innocent people who have nothing to do with my situation, including God. Now I’m VERY clear who my enemy is – Lucy, a.k.a Lucifer😈

Now I’m mature enough to understand that God is GOOD, like ALL the time. I’m learning to understand the real enemy who has a purpose to KILL, STEAL AND DESTROY, a.k.a Lucy 😈.

God showed me how Lucy can work through people I love and trust, through situations and through my environment. So I’m learning to be vigilant.

The world is broken. People are broken, including you. STOP expecting humans to do what ONLY GOD can do – which is – to FIX YOU and YOUR BROKENNESS. It’s just not their role in your life.

Limp, crawl or roll to Him. Whatever you choose, go👏to👏Him. People are just that – People! They have their own limitations. Trust me they are also broken in some way, they just hide it better than you.

Who but God knows the hearts of men? (Jer 17:9-10).

There are somethings in your life that only God can deal with. Please stop overwhelming your fellow humans with God-issues! Its not fair.

Whoever you believe created you, go to them. As for me – I go to Jesus. The Author and Finisher of my faith. It is by His will that I still breathe. So whatever fixing needs to happen, He must do it.

I am a Jesus Ninja. Through it all, I will forever trust and serve Him. No person has ever:

1. Sacrificed their life for me

2. Intercede for me ALL the time

3. Loved me beyond measure

That’s why He gets ALL of me, because I know how difficult I am to love, but He does – Everyday and ALLDAY❤

If you can relate – just praise Him🙌🙌🙌

Buried or Planted?

The process of burial and planting is quite similar. A hole is dug, stuff is put into the ground and covered up. No one can see what is happening under ground until time has passed. With burial nothing shoots above the ground, with planting life shoots up and breaks through the ground.

How we end up in the ground is really not the issue. Life is unpredictable and everyone has been in the ground in some form or shape. Sadly some people never broke through.

While in the ground of life there is darkness, uncertainty, anguish, pain etc.. However for those who know that God’s hands can reach to that depth of darkness, believe that they have been planted and not buried. Just like a developing embryo in the womb, some gifts and callings are developed in secret. Only God knows the schedule of that development. Your role is to trust the Initiator of the process.

As I write this I’m going through that process. I feel like I’m ready to go out there, but God is saying “soon but not yet my beloved”. It’s hard being in this space. It’s lonely, painful and often frustrating. My friend reminded me last night that God knows best, I believe her. Just looking at the mess I created when I leaned on my own understanding is evidence that I should rather trust Him🙂

Keep the dream alive, it looks hopeless right now. You are at your wit’s end, breaking in ways you can’t explain, hurting and exhausted. God knows and cares. Look past your feelings and remember what He promised. Yes the Red Sea is in front, the Egyptian army is approaching BUT God did part the Red Sea..

Whatever your “Egyptian army” looks like now, God said “you shall see them no more…, be STILL” (Ex 14:13-14). You are not decaying under the ground, you are developing into something glorious. You WILL breakthrough the ground soon.

Hang in there🍀 Be blessed always.

Rolling stone… Matthew 27 and 28

I can only imagine what it was like when that stone was rolled and Jesus was not found amongst the dead!

The drama of persecution happened and you were put into the grave, amongst the dead. It can be relationship, emotional, financial or soul death. This year stones will be rolled. Are you lying dead in the tomb or risen and seated at the right hand of God?

2020 was hard! However, if you are reading this then you made it. Honestly I’m so over Satan’s tactics (kill, steal and destroy) that I boldly declare the loss encountered by hell. Satan fights dirty with crazier rules than a street fight, BUT God is bigger🙌

“God is still on the throne”, as my mom would say. Change your perspective. Ask Him to reveal the purpose of your pain. Remember that though we are cast down, we are not forsaken. Where there is life, there is hope.

I now glory in my weakness cos that is when I witnessed His strength!

I praise Him despite my circumstances cos He is God!

I continue to have faith cos He is permanent, our life on Earth is not.

I am Erengai Elaine Mofokeng. His Jesus Ninja. His creation. His annointed. His beloved.

2021, Bring 👏 it 👏 on!!!

Stay blessed always 🌸

2020 Finale – God Is Faithful

What a blessing it is to serve a God who is not man that He should lie. A God whose hand is not too short to save us from any situation. A God who does not sleep or slumber. A God who is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent!

Father thank you for the gift of life, love and salvation. Thank you for the moments of brokenness that were not in vain. Thank you for your provision, protection and leadership. Thank you for creating me in your image!

Through the fire – You are faithful!

Through the drought – You are faithful!

Through the storm – You are faithful!

There are people who would die if they went through what I did, but Your grace and mercy covered me. Your eye is truly always on the Sparrow – ME! The hedge that You built around me has kept me to this day! Blessed be your name!

As you wrap up the year 2020, I pray you will see the faithfulness of God in your life. Look for those moments when your back was literally against the wall and you believed it was over until Mercy said Nope! Look for those moments when your world was so dark it made night look like day until His light came shining and revealed what you needed to perceive so you could continue your path.

Only you know what you went through and how He showed up for you. He shows up because He loves you and He is faithful. That is Who God is. Oh what a friend we truly have in Jesus! Unmatched and Undefeated!

Happy 2020 holidays. Be blessed always💜