There was once a vibe on social media about some 10-year challenge where people compared their looks then and now. My curiosity was not so much how I looked then, but what the state of my heart was then compared to now.
I often wonder, does God approve of this version of me? Have I improved, stayed the same or gotten worse?
From verse 1-3 I know that was definitely me once. So deeply entrenched in the drama of this world, caring too much what people thought, engaging in self-destructive thoughts and behaviours, doubting my gifts and callings, treating my Creator like a part-time Sunday weekend job. I was basically the chief griever of the Holy Spirit.
That was then.. before Love, His Love, finally broke through ALL of that and more. God broke, crushed and re-molded me to what He had in mind when He formed me in my mother’s womb. Lucy 😈 and I had to break-up and till today he hounds me for that.
Now I’m living in the moments of verse 4-8. I started to appreciate the gift of Salvation. I opened myself to His Love. I learned to navigate life through a different lens, His lens. I surrendered, allowing myself to be vulnerable with Him.
No, my life did not instantly become easier, I actually now engage in these crazy and petty fights with Lucy😈. Like the dude is really mad that I left😄
The difference now is I have this peace because over and over God has been faithful. Each day is truly a gift from Him and believe me, He picks up ALL of my calls to Him. Oh but Jesus❤
So yeah, I’m not the same. I couldn’t be. Im now fully aware of His Love for me, but most importantly I have received it and choose to dwell in it daily. Some days I trip and fall hard but His Love cushions me and I am able to get up and continue running my race. The race is not for the swift but for those who truly have the ability to commit, endure and finish the race.
I WILL die empty having poured out EVERYTHING He placed inside of me. That is the way of a Jesus Ninja 💯
Be and stay blessed always 🌸